Migration

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A test

My feeling is not very good today
My emotion and focus distracted
After my appointment last night
I know I have to gone through this
And I realized this is part of life
Everything came from Allah
I have to be 'sabar' and 'redha' if this is really what meant for me
O Allah..please strengthen me
If possible I don't want to go through the disappointment again
I'm weak..
I hope the result next week will turn ok
It's not that I could not accept it
But it hurt..
Myrahman told me not to worry
The doctor said that too
But I am really worried
Why this suddenly happen
Because in the last two weeks everything was ok..
Please pray for me
O Allah..please be the light of my eyes, ears and heart
Strengthen my iman and give me strength to move on
Amin..

A poem

Assalamualaikum..This is a very nice poem to share, extracted from Mutma'ina.

Remember Just Remember
By Anonymous

When things are down
And you are out of your mind
Remember just remember

Allah is The Kind.

When your life is in darkness
And nothing is right
Remember just remember

Through the darkness Allah is The Light.

When nothing makes sense
And your heading for demise
Remember just remember

It doesn't make sense, but Allah is The Wise.

When times are troubled
And no one seems to care
Remember just remember

Allah won't hurt you, He is The Fair.

When your heart is breaking
And your pain makes you fall
Remember just remember

Allah Sees it all.

When you are weak
And the road seems long
Remember just remember

Seek strength from The Strong.

When life is a burden
And everything is unstable
Remember just remember

Allah is The Able.

When the way is cloudy
And there is no one by your side
Remember just remember

Allah is The Only Guide.

When no one wants to listen
Or is willing to lend an ear
Remember just remember

Allah is always ready to hear.

When you are poor and penniless
And you are stuck in a niche
Remember just remember

Allah is The Rich.

When you are down in your misery
And there is nowhere to run
Remember just remember

You can always run to The One.

When your all alone
And your pain has no end
Remember just remember

Allah is your Friend.

And when your scars are hurting
And your heart is in fear
Remember just remember

Allah is really here.

penat

Assalamualaikum..
lama x update blog.
Been pretty busy lately..
Anyway, alhamdulillah..saya masih sihat setakat ni.
Cuma kadang2 je rasa pening+loya.
Doakan saya ye..
hihi..

Hari ni masuk ofis, setelah 3 minggu pegi audit luar..
lega+aman sikit..
sbb kilang aritu bising sgt dgn bunyi mesin..
Dtg2 plak dpt cek duit claim g audit bln mac aritu..
alhamdulillah..rezki di awal bln..hehe
btambah smgt skitnk kje arini..

Smlm penat sgt sb dok menolong kenduri sepupu kawin kat selayang
otw blk, pegi melawat kakak ipar yg xsihat di hospital serdang..
"pembawaan budak"..alhamdulillah, saya masih dpt bertahan..
semoga kaklong juga cpt sembuh..
selera blk tuk mkn..
lps dr hosp, kami blk ke tmn melati.
sempat tdo skjp sb pnt sgt.
otw blk sgah mkn dlu n smpi puchong dkt pukul 12 mlm.
berakhir juga minggu yg sungguh memenatkan ni..
hihi

My sin block my Du'a

As I sit here alone, the tears rolling down my face
It is not salt, but pain that I taste

So I leave now to go stand before You
I am helpless and alone, what else can I do?

I have asked, I have begged but my sins block my du'a
I will come now still begging, forgive me O Allah

Forgive me and grant me what it is that I ask
For me it is impossible but for You a simple task

I try and I try but I do not succeed
But I understand and know it is because Your Words I do not heed

I hear, yes I hear but I do not always obey
Perhaps that is why I am destitute, isolated and why You have written that I will be alone this way

I have no to blame but the person in the mirror I see
No one else must pay for my sins, no one else, no one else, no one else but me

So I stand before You to again beg forgiveness because You said that I can
You have told us in Your Book that You are Ar-Rahman

I will ask, I will beg but my sins my block my du'a
But I will keep asking, forgive me O Allah

vacation

enjoy the pictures..........

Busy

Assalamualaikum..
It's been quite sometime i did not post anything in my blog.
I have been pretty busy since this last 3 weeks.
Went for audit at one of our subsidiary at Batu caves.
What a tough work, with a lots of area to cover within 2 and a half week, with a team member of 5.
Finally, I am back to office.
Where I can meet my other colleagues.

Last Monday my car brokedown.
The temperature blow up on my way to office.
It is very dissappointing since it caused me difficulties to get to the office.
Yesterday me and my abi sent my beloved WHL to the workshop.
Alhamdulillah the mechanic told abi that WHL will be ready by this evening, Insyallah..

I am very excited today
Bacause tomorrow is the day that I and abi are waiting for..
We are going to fly away from the city, Insyallah..
Not too far, just to the langkawi Island.
But its free from the traffic jam, smoke, stress..
lie down on the beach, swimming and snorkeling at the private beach..
erm..that's what I am waiting for..

Its been 3 years that I did not reach there.
The last time was when my late mama is still alive.
At that time we had a family gathering at Berjaya
what a memorable time we had..
But tomorrow, we are staying at Langkasuka Beach Resort
It's near the Pantai Cenang.
Hope that everything turns out great there..
No worry, we'll be back on Monday night Insyallah.
Langkawi...here we come~

Tetamu Undangan

This is the faces that finally make it to my house..
They were Nadia, Zaiyad and the newly wed Abreeza and Jaya with two of their instant kids hehe, just kidding, the cute kids were abreeza's niece and nephew.
Congratulations..hehe
I know that it is quite difficult to get to my house.
Firdaus didn't make it, he got lost half way and turn back, *kesian..*

Well, I had them spagetti, popiah, and mix fruit trifle.
Then Nadia came with Berry's cheesecakes and abreeza came with rojak.
Zaiyad? biaselah, empty handed..
Had a good time with them that day.
Played congkak and chess games also.
Also lots of appreciation to my dear Rahman for helping me up that day..
Muahhhs...

Later, me, myrahman, nadia and zaiyad decided to go to Alamanda.

Guest

Going to have a guest tomorrow.
Invited my officemates Nadia, ABreeza, Zaiyad and Firdaus to our house
Just to have a mini gathering
Since today is Abreeza's birthday
Have to go to Giant tonight to buy things for the food tomorrow.
Cake will be sponsored by Nadia and Zaiyad.
Not sure yet what to cook..
Really happy because this the first time they are coming to our house.

Tiring night

Last night was a tiring night ever
After fetch rahman at subang jaya,
We both staright to Putrajaya to fetch his motorbike.
Salat at Putrajaya's Mosque
I felt very calm in there..
Praise to Allah..

After had our salat
went for dinner at precint 9 before head back home
I had a set of chicken chop while myrahman had nasi lemak ayam dara (how they know the chicken is still virgin, funny..hihi)
Arrived home at almost 10p.m.
I was so tired and fall asleep in front of the TV after salat
Luckily my dear wake me up and i found my clothes ironed by him
So thankful..Alhamdulillah..

Holiday

Wed evening
After worked yesterday, I went to SS15 Mc'Donald's to fetch my dear rahman
He got there from Klang by train after audited one of the government's department there.
He said he want to accompany me home instead of letting me driving home alone as usual..
he got me a double cheeseburger after I told him I was so hungry since I have not had my lunch
Which I considered as a very understanding
He knows what I like..good good..

Wed Night
Later, we head straight to Alamanda Putrajaya to meet up my friends
Unfortunately due to some reasons the meetings cancelled.
So, instead of sending myrahman to fetch his motorbike at Precint 9 last night,
we went to Alamanda
Myrahman bought me a "congkak" which I really wanted for a long time..
Had a bowl of Ipoh Hor Fan which is my fav at the food court before head back to Puchong.
Had a three round game of congkak with my dear until late last night
But I did not win any
erm...can't believe I was defeated by him..ohhh

Today
I felt pretty boring at the office lately
because my next assignment will be started next monday
Insyallah i will be going to one of DRB's subsidiaries near Shah Alam and Batu Caves for audit.
Hope I'll enjoy the next assignment since it consist of a larger number of team member
Also wish to learn something new..

I booked a holiday package from Airasia today
Because I suddenly felt that I need a rest
Insyallah we both are going to Langkawi early of next month
At first I planned to Bandung
Unfortunately my dear does not really attracted with it
Since he knows I may do lots of investment or donation there hehe..
maybe some other times..
Hoho..can't really wait for the vacation..=)

Dinner with family

Family Dinner
Last night I invited my family to come over our house for dinner
I cooked chicken soup, mixed vegetables and "sambal tempe" (which is ayah's favourite)
It was a coincidence that yesterday was ayah and arwah mama's 32nd anniversaries
So I consider it as a special day..even without adik
May Allah please upon mama..and bless ayah
For brought us up until what we had became today..

Waiting for tonight
Going to Alamanda tonight, Insyallah
Going to meet my highschool bestfriends; Shila, Nadhirah & Yanti
Wish Zuraidah could join us..but she is away
Miss they all so much..
The last time I met them was at my wedding
But Zuraidah can't make it
Its ok..
Well, had to seek permission from my boss first hehe..
Surely he want to join us..should I bring him geng? hehe..

Unwell

Felt a bit unwell yesterday
Headache
Probably because of my low blood pressure
Need to drink lots of water

I cried badly last night
Don't get me wrong
Its just that I suddenly felt I wanted to cry
That's all
But I feel relief then
Thank you to myrahman
For always care about me
Had my eyes swollen today to the office
Got it coverred by the eyeliner
Please don't be sad
Allah is always with you fadillah..

O' Allah please strengthen me
Fill myself with Iman and passion
Give me a good health
so I can be strong
and have a baby
Insyallah


Live Islam Act Islam Love Islam
p.e.a.c.e.

weekenders

Last Friday night, Along stayed a night at our house.
She was at her big surprise once she explore my husband's 1 Terabite external hardisk
Found out there were lots of Korean, Japan and English's drama and movies inside
I know that was her favourite
Let it be..Not sure till what time she stayed up that night..Enjoying the drama and movies..

The next morning, we planned to IKEA
since Along had never been there before.
However, we cancelled the plan since my in laws is coming.
Moreover, Along suddenly felt not well that morning.
In the evening, after accompanied Along to the clinic,
we went to Alamanda before sending her back to Kajang.
Poor Along..hopefully she'll be ok.

Later, me and myrahman went to Tesco (which we rarely visit)
bought some kitchen's goods (my husband's got a brand new floor mop hihi)
went to Nagoya because I want to sew a new curtain (for trial)

Sunday
Followed myrahman to the PC Fair which we were informed earlier it's going to be at PWTC
However, when we got there, we both felt a bit weird because the crowded is not as usual
There were only exhibition for properties and Smart Kid conducted there.
Oh, I have thought this would happen..
The PC Fair were normally happen at the KLCC Convention Centre.

So then, we both head to KLCC
As usual, there were thousand of people since it was the last day for the PC fair.
Unfortunately we both found that the price offered is more or less as prices at the Lowyat
so we decided to just buy at the Lowyat Plaza.
Moreover, the condition at the PC Fair was very terrible because there were lots of people there.
I found there were good discounts for PS2, it is now available at RM399 which I think quite cheap..

Since the KLCC foodcourt was full of people,
myrahman suggest that we had our lunch at Ampang Park.
He accompanied me having the Asam Laksa then I accompanied him having the McDonalds
After salat, we went to the Lowyat and bought his new Samsung LCD Monitor and Edifier Speaker
It was raining heavily on our way back
and guess what, we came by motorbikes
can you imagine how it is look like me sitting at the back holding a large box of LCD monitor while he had a huge box of speaker going through a heavy rain..
Funny is it?
Myrahman made his joke as usual..while on the motorbike he said to me
"people must have said like this when they look at us, poor them, going through a heavy rain, carrying huge box..tu la, sape suruh tak belajar betul2 dlu..ha kan tak bole beli kete.."
hahahaha..
myrahman is so not funny..
and he was so lucky that time because I pinch his ears.
sorry dear you are too naughty..
(Time pegi naik kete xnak beli, time naik motor baru nak beli brg byk2..layan jela~)

Self-consciousness

I used to have a diary once.
After sometime, I stop writing it.
Nowadays, I consider my blog as my diary but not a secret one.
I believe that this is one way where I can express my thoughts and feelings.

Sad
On my way to office this morning
while I was driving
listening to the IKIM playing the song from Yassin & Too Phat, titled "Alhamdulillah" makes tears filled in my eyes.
It suddenly turns me sad
Because I was thinking how is it going to be if I will be having a baby
(I know and I admit that I kept thinking about this always)
How am I going to take care of myself and the baby..
Oh..I should not have thought this way..
because it will remind me of the past.
I should not be worry because I know Allah will always be with me.
And I have my dearest husband on my side.
Alhamdulillah..

Changes
What I am going to say had nothing to do with anyone
I am really sorry if it could hurt any of you.
But it did hurt me when I hear such statement..
O' Allah..forgive me..

At first I know that my appearance in the office had change lately.
And as I expected, many had surprised. (Lots of comments received, well thank you)
Of course, I am wearing baju kurung everyday with my new style of wearing scarf.
But what happen is I do not know that this could have made anyone feel uncomfortable with it.

At this point of time, I totally agree with my husband's statement when I asked his opinion on my attire one day,
He said, "Biasala syg..kdg2 org moden mana suke pakai yang sopan2 kan..Org cakap org sopan ni berfikiran cetek..They are them".
But I know the statement is only to remind me, not intentionally to condemn others.
For me, what matters is this is what I want and I comfortable with and this is what my husband care.

And I have no right if you want to wear a skirt or a tight sleeves
I cannot say anything. Not because I do not want to
But sometimes people would think the other side.
We are all the slaves of Allah
I have my own weaknesses, I admit it.
What matters is you know what you are doing and you are really comfortable of what you are wearing.
But when it comes to mine, I have to stand up myself.
I am so sorry.
For me it's not a matter of being young that you cannot wear this kind of scarf..
It's a matter of how you perceive yourself.
Think about it ok.
Hope Allah may strengthen my Iman and those around me..Amin

p/s : Along did sms me last night informing ayah was having a fever.Poor ayah..hopefully he will recover soon. I may come to visit ayah tonight, Insyallah.


Live Islam, Act Islam, Love Islam.
p.e.a.c.e.

Myself

Allah's name written by the bees

Assalamualaikum all.
Hope everybody are doing well today.
Alhamdulillah I am in a good health but felt a bit sleepy this morning.

After got in the office this morning, I finished my yesterday's task.
I believe Insyallah after this I know how to complete that task.
Even the task was a bit troublesome, I learnt something new.
Its 'passion'.

Willingness
This morning my superior ask me whether I am willing to travel to Johore for the next assignment.
And I replied I will, Insyallah.
Actually, he seems a bit shy or uncomfortable when questioning me this question.
Then I add, 'I still not yet have a baby to take care of encik, no worry..' trying to make he understand and at the same time, we both laugh.
What happen is that I think that many people in my division could have thought that I may not willing to go for an outstation since I was married.
That might be the reason why I was always scheduled to engaged in the audit work around KL and Selangor.
Except my last assignment which needed me to go to Pekan.
The thing is actually, I do not mind.
Yeah, of course. From my personal thoughts, getting married may not be the reason for my limitation or barrier.
Especially when it comes to work.
I am aware, everybody have a family, spouses and children to take care of.
But somehow, sometimes we need to be committed to what we are doing.
Sometimes we need to take risk and challenge in order for us to make a decision to set your own goal in life.
Sacrifice is one thing. We have to face it even sometime it may hurt.

Opportunity
Oh, I forgot to mention about what happen yesterday.
I was called for an interview from one company near S.alam which is not far from my office and another one is from IBM. (one is account related and another one is audit related)
I drawn the first offer since the benefits does not attract me while the other one, I missed it.
Well, hopefully I will be staying here a bit longer or hopefully a better offer comes in soon. Amin..
The main reason is that I cannot stand the bad traffic here. It really tiring me..

Valuable thoughts
I wanted to share few words which I extracted from the Mutmainaa's article which I found was very interesting and valuable. Especially for people like me. Hope the message will also be valuable for you too.

A rock in Sajdah position

"Today, as we stumble through our confused and turbulent world, as we grope in darkness, as we suffer from uncertainty and depression, we must look for and grasp at the teachings of the Prophet of Islam (salAllahu alayhi wasalam), so that they will act as a cure for many of the social ills that have befallen humanity the world over — both the Islamic world and the non-Islamic world.

The world at present is faced with many problems. There is a sense of defeat. In the West, people speak of depression and decay in society. In the East, industrial and technological progress has created a vacuum in society. Many people are floundering in darkness. They don’t know what to do. They cling to values that have nothing to do with life. They join cults. For role models they look up to unworthy individuals — individuals badly lacking in moral values.

It is here that we should follow our Prophet (salAllahu alayhi wasalam) and set an example so that others will truly appreciate the philosophy of our ideology and abide by the example of the greatest of all men. Let us teach ourselves and our children and make them aware of the life of the Prophet (salAllahu alayhi wasalam) and use it as an example in our daily lives in order that we may improve our conduct and become better human beings.
Let us all pray that in the life hereafter we will have a chance to be near our beloved Holy Prophet (salAllahu alayhi wasalam).
Ameen. "

Clouds in the name of Allah

p/s: to my dear fatiha, happy belated birthday. So sorry for the late wish because I am almost forgotten. May Allah bless you dear~looking forward for my good news? I am going better, alhamdulillah..(I know exactly what you mean but i still need to rest or it may not good for both future baby and mother soon to be, hihi~)

Live Islam, Act Islam, Love Islam.
p.e.a.c.e

Desires

Lately, my life was full with desires and wants.
I suddenly felt I want to do this and that,
I want to have this and that,
I want to go here and there..
However, my limitation has put a barrier on it.
You know what is the most thing I want to do now?
I want to do a needlework.
I want to sew a pair of baju kurung
A baju kurung of mine.
Sewing on my own..
Then if the result is ok, I can sew for others
especially for my sisters
erm..trying to figure out what to do with my ample time instead of staying at home doing nothing.
my office work is currently is on and off.
I noticed that working life is not as great as the campus life
Of course living in Shah Alam and Arau is totally different
But I think Arau is better..I mean in terms of traffics and foods
To my dearest friends; kecik,tiha,hana,jay and che pa..i miss u all so much..
I really miss the time that we stayed in the Bungalow and Tmn Sri Wang
Foods at west, charkueteow dpn masjid, laksa near the Kangar roundabout, pasar malam Arau..
No worry, I will workout with our plan to the island but we still need to meet up somewhere..
I believe Jay is super duper busy at PWTC..
hana is just quite near me since she's staying at sunway..
for che pa, I will inform you the overall budget later ok..
btw, I know tiha is across the sea, but we'll try to include her okies?
Lets go for a vacation gurls~

Enjoyable Sunday

Yesterday morning, me and myrahman went to Kajang to fetch my Along as we were going to a wedding, a different wedding. Along is going for a wedding at maluri. Today is our ex-uitm mate, Rabiahtul Adawiah (ada) 's wedding. The wedding was held at the JKR Hall, Jln Sultan Salehuddin KL. It was a wonderful wedding, with the enchanted bride and groom*ada was so pretty* with the orange~yellow~brown color themes.

The food was good, they also served ice cream + teh tarik + roti boom but we both only had the nasi minyak. Unluckily, we did not bumped into anyone we known or familiar with at the wedding..maybe we came a bit early but we did stayed till the bride and groom came into the hall.

Me and myrahman would like to wish ada and husband "a happy marriage life and may Allah bless both of u.."

sblm ke kenduri

myrahman

check out the stage..nice pelamin~

ada

pengantin menanti silat

wah, dapat paper beg..
2 plak tu..

seronok betul en rahman nih..



After the wedding, we both head straight to the Lowyat Plaza (as usual, this is a must go place during weekends) since myrahman planned to bought his new desktop which he had been dreaming days and night. But last minute, he did change his mind~no comment. Then we go for a window shopping at the Sg Wang Plaza. After that, we both went to the Wangsa Maju Jaya Jusco and do some donation there (don't get me wrong~donate means we are exchanging our money for the goods..hihi)
Myrahman bought a pair of his office attire (luckily he found something he really want to and it does not takes a long time ~because normally he was a super duper fussy about selecting things that he want). Renoma and Smalto's were having a very big discount there. I think abi should do some workout la, after all you can migrate from L to M size hehe~
Seeing myrahman with the plastic bag turns me a bit envy..why don't I pick up something for myself or I will get home empty handed (which I always felt like "penat je jalan tp x beli ape2 pun" hehe..
Anyway, Im not a shopperholic okay~not since the day I'm getting married.
So then, after a round at the ladies, I found this cute ***** . So I decided to have it since it was with a discount, I told myself earlier that I only go for goods with discount ~if possible hehe..


isn't it cute? I know it looks good but I don't think it is comfort to be wear..somehow, I bought it already lalala~

Then we went back to Tmn Melati to visit my in-laws before back to Puchong..
So tired, thank to myrahman for ironing my office outfit today, you're the best!!