A test

My feeling is not very good today
My emotion and focus distracted
After my appointment last night
I know I have to gone through this
And I realized this is part of life
Everything came from Allah
I have to be 'sabar' and 'redha' if this is really what meant for me
O Allah..please strengthen me
If possible I don't want to go through the disappointment again
I'm weak..
I hope the result next week will turn ok
It's not that I could not accept it
But it hurt..
Myrahman told me not to worry
The doctor said that too
But I am really worried
Why this suddenly happen
Because in the last two weeks everything was ok..
Please pray for me
O Allah..please be the light of my eyes, ears and heart
Strengthen my iman and give me strength to move on
Amin..